My Very Good Friend Anthony, Told Me It Was Either Him Or My Razor.
He Also Told Me That Hes Not Always Going Th Be There. And My Other Good Friend Kieth, Is Just Kieth. He's Hyper As All Fuck, And I Cant Hang Out With Him Be Cause He's Way To Hyper. !? But I Love Them Both, Even Though They Wont Be There Forever. I Dont Get Myself.
I Fuck Up All The Relationships I Have With People But Then I Expect Them To Love Me. Im A Stupid Bitch. I Should Die. I Dont Know Why I'm Still Living. I Know, Every Teenager Feels That Way, And I'm Probly Not Any Different. I'm Just A Very Stupid Girl Whos Falls for The Wrong people At The Wrong Times. And Deffinitely All the Wrong Places. Im A Royal Fuckup, And Shocked My Parents Haven't Killed Me Yet. I Could Easily End Everyones Pain, I Could Just Dissapear. But No, Im Gonna Be a Complete Bitch And Continue. Not That I Want To, But Because, I Guess I'm Just Scared To Push The Blade Down Any Further Than It's Already Going.

Aimee And I Broke Up. Anthony Like's Kirsten. Kevin Is Going Out With Kristen.[Kristen And Kirsten Are 2 Different People.] Fallon's 'straight'. And Duffy 'disapeared'. My Heart Gets Broken And Stepped On Three Times Everytime I See Or Even Talk To These People. I Need Someone Who's Not Going To play Any Fucking Games With My Fucking Heart. Is It Not Enough I Cry Every Single Fucking Day, That I Have To Not Cry When I See These People? Do I Deserve That Little? I Think I'd At Least Deserve Some One Thats Honest, Right? I'm Not Even Looking For A Girlfriend, Or A Boyfriend, They Come And find me Then Insist On Riping My Heart Out, Promising That They'll Return, And They Never Do, Once I Get All The Pieces Together, I'm Wraped Around Someone Elses Finger. And Every Time I Think I'll Stop Loving, Every Time I Tell Myself, It Always Happens again. It Wont Stop, Not Now Not Never, Until Im Dead. If I Only Could, If I Only Could. But I Can't, Pathetic.

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Why Do my friends always Get Hurt?
kieth, My Best Friend, flipped Over anthonys bike Handles, And Broke His Growth Plate In His HAnd, Fucked Up His Face, And Lost 2 and A Half Teeth.
Hes 14 And Insane, And He Got Hurt Being Normal For Once.
I dont Know Whats Going on In My Life Any More. But I Think Im Going Insane My self.
I Dont Feel Like Me, And When ever I Am Im SAd, Or Depessed.
I Always Feel Like Im Looking At my Body But Its Just Not Me.
I Feel Like I Can Watch This Person, And Not Be able To Change What Theyre doing, Saying, Thinking, Or Looking At.
It's Like Im On A Bad Tripp, And I Just Cant Cut Loose.
i Need Somebodys Saving For The First Time, In A Long Time.
I Actually Went To My Parents, But I Dont Think They Belive Me.
Somebody Help Me.
I Dont Think I can Even Have A Taste Of Reality.
At Least NOt Until im Fixxdd.
because Apparently, Sweetie, Im Just Broken.
I Dont Know Any More.
x

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This, Im Guessing Is An Intro.
To What I'll Be Writing about.
My Name Is Marissa,
I'm Just Another Stupid Teenager,
I Don't Know How I Should Be "Greatful" For This Wreched Life,
If All It Entails Is Pain Suffering And Agony.
The Very Few Friends I Have,
Are Either Extreame Potheads,
Or Very Straight Edge.
I'm not getting Along With Anyone Right Now,
And I should.
My Life Hasn't Been Ineresting.
Only A Little.
My Real Father,
Is A Complete Asshole, And I Usually Refer To Him As Spam.

Mutilation, Is My Addiction.
I Haven't Done It In About I Month Now.
But I Haven't Been Quite Happy Either.
Im Considering Leaving.
Leaving This "House."
It Just Doesnt Work,
I Fuck Up Peoples Lives.
I Dont Make Anything Better,
Only Worse.
I Dont know Much about Myself,
All I Know Is That I Cant Stand Myself.
And I Know,
I Sound Like A Regular Depressed Teen,
But I Feel Different,
I Feel Like I Should Be Older.
I Feel Like I Should Be Dead.
I Feel Like I'm Not Worth it,
The Air I Breath,
The Food I Waste,
And The Earth I Pollute.
Nothing's Worth It.
We Each Take Valuble Steps In Life,
But Lately,
Mine,
Haven't Effected Anyones World,
I'm Thinking What Ever I Was "meant" To Do here,
Is Done.
Now Everyone's Just Waiting,
Waiting for Somthing Big.
I Believe,
That Something Is To Show People,
Not To Be Afraid,
Not To Be Afraid To Die,
Rather Then suffer For The Rest Of Their Lives.

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